last post?

i am now writing what will perhaps be my last post from out here in kenya as im boarding my flight in only 3 days! tuesday just after 11pm is when im set to fly, my friends will all (ok as many as we can cram into the land cruised, the max is meant to be 14 but i think 18 might be ok!) accompany me to the airport in a red cross land cruiser, as we are volonteers and staff, if we fuel it and make the request (which we did long ago) we can take the vehicle! wich i am much looking forward to. then tomorrow they are organising me a "surprise" bash involving goat being roasted! it was to be a surprise but i saw the goat prancing around the compound and the beans were spilled! it should be a good event (of which l be sure to post photos when i am back to the land of internet in the house and fast computers)
so what have i been0 doing in my last week? i was on a desaster response training for a few days which was very enlightening, but other than that it has been packing, sorting, and spend ing the last time with many people. its sad but i have to remind myself that i am nod dying, i can always come back! there is internet and there is phone!
so what are the feelings? anticipation, fear, excitement, sadness, joy... ALL of them. its funny to think of leaving this all behind but i am ready, this is the start of a new chapter in my life which starts back in the UK. so until i see you in person,
love to you all,
Bee xxx